I get easily depressed lately as I struggle to cope with every single shit happening. I believe deeply in entropy now.
The normal me would have been so happy to embrace Autumn, but all I could think of was shit, its already Autumn and my life is still a mess. Just being sad at every occasion possible in such a lovely city of Melbourne, and I don't understand why. Melbourne is beautiful and I love being here. What is wrong?
We have moved into our cute 2 bedder in Kensington 2 weeks ago, and we are still not fully settled in.
It took 2 weeks for the agency to send cleaners in to clean the house, fix the lights, shampoo the carpet and also 2 weeks for our broadband to be set up. I hate it when people don't do their jobs causing my plans to fail. So we push them and push them just to get what we were supposed to get and in the process get frustrated for having to be chasing people around.
I've learnt to let go, let go of the breakage to our stuff by the movers. It is not so bad afterall, since they were sincere in apology and gave us 2 free movie tickets. Seriously, I've no energy to fight with anyone. Learning to let go is the best you can do for yourself. I fully understand the need of drinking a glass of wine in the day just to be able to feel like you are living in that moment.
My major problem is that I still have 1 box and 2 bags of clothes to unpack... it seems like an non-issue but I just can't find the space to store them yet. So everyday I stare at them, feeling guilty. It doesnt help that we are supposed to clear our guest room for my sis in law to move in this Monday.
Work is hectic, working in the office is good for synergy but Im still getting used to having to spend 1 hour a day getting there and back.
I have an invisible to do list which lingers at the back of my mind even when Im in bed supposed to be resting. Thus I have the strangest dreams ever. Fortunately my memory has deteriorated with the exhaustion that I can't recall my dreams. Who has time for such menial stuff anyway.
Today is a strange day at work where Im alone in the office. What a peaceful start to Autumn.
It should get better or at least I hope, and I certainly hope I can snap out of this mood.
Well I can certainly keep hoping things turn up...







